Leaving Rapture

Well I guess you could say ive sat down several times now and tried to write about the actual rapture. Truth is nobody will truly understand what I lost. I still dont even understand why I lost it. But know this, im leaving it behind. I miss it more then ever. More then you ever could comprehend. I love her to death still, and I hope for the best for her. I now understand even through all my strengths, my flaws overcame them. The town of rapture was a lonely place, one that sought to seek out pity. A place where fear was spawned and where hopes were shattered. A lifestyle of hurt and deception. And most of all a way of learning. No I cant say ive learned it all, im no where close to it, but what I have learned, (and its been a damn hard lesson) is that there are certain things we as human beings have no control over. I could tell you more, it will instill the pity that I wanted it too, but in all actuality it doesnt fix the problem. The problem will never be fixed. Its one of those things that are totaled, and cant be repaired. You have to go out and buy a new one and hope to god it runs as nice as the last one. No I dont throw that out to make it materialistic, because it wasnt. It was something more than love to me. Something that I would do anything for, something that i wouldve done more than anything. I miss her, but slowly and surely im moving on. And all that I can hope for is that I dont find myself back here again. Im heading out, and leaving rapture for good.